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December 10th, 2008 at 05:13 am

I went to C.'s game. She is a freshman and cheers JV so I left at halftime of the varsity game. She never ended up needing any money and I felt self conscious. Of course, I had to see people I knew in highschool. My old Cheerleading coach, my old superintendent, teacher and another old friend.

They ALL stopped to talk to me and I couldn't have looked much worse. I had no makeup on. My hair had gotten wet from the rain walking into the school and I had on a very wrinkled (but clean) top. I was wearing thick white work socks that stuck out of my brown leather shoes like they were infused with radium!

But I did it! AND I was the only cheerleading mom (of the JV cheerleaders) that showed up! How sad! For real though, I have a lot of social anxiety. Sometimes I wonder if I have an actual disorder because I can actually feel my blood pressure rise and my stomach flip flop at the thought of being in a large crowd by myself.

But I shall acquiesce from these self-centered ramblings.

The JV got pummeled and the varsity lost by two points. A boy from our highschool got into trouble for drinking alcohol in the stands. Talk about representing your school.

I was really disappointed when two of the other sides cheerleaders came out and did a tumbling pass consisting of round-off double backhandspring tuck. The opposing student section went wild and started chanting (toward our student section) "You can't do that, you can't do that."

C. could do that kind of tumbling pass in her sleep and she actually did a round-off 5 backhandsprings back layout and an aerial during the jv game. But this was during the varsity game so she couldn't go back on the floor! I wish she would have done her full twist!!

Yikes, I get too competitive at times!

Well, I had to spend 6.00 to get into the game tonight but you know I didn't spend any money at the concession stand because I was glued to my seat lest I expose myself unnecessarily to even more people I hadn't seen in 10 years or so!

11 Responses to “By the way...”

  1. whitestripe Says:
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    well i am very proud of you that you did go. i think it took a lot of courage. well done Smile

  2. mom-sense Says:
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    Good for you for going! And who really cares what you were wearing or what you looked like. Your were there for C!

  3. gamecock43 Says:
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    Sounds like everyone was glad to see you there.

  4. North Georgia Gal Says:
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    I sometimes feel like I have this social stigma as well...but C will remember that you came to her games and supported her. That is the most important thing! I haven't missed one of my son's soccer games or my daughters cheerleading events in 5 years!

  5. creditcardfree Says:
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    Yes, you should be proud of yourself for going. I'm sure she appreciated it.

  6. KellyB Says:
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    CONGRATULATIONS! Well done. I'm sure your daughter was glad you were there to see her, even though she may never say it. Good for you!

  7. lizajane Says:
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    Good for you for going! And think about it this way...do you remember what socks the former coach, super, teacher and friend had on? Was their hair neat and tidy? Were they all wearing makeup (ok, this doesn't count if any were men)? Probably not, and that's probably not what they remember about you either.

  8. homebody Says:
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    I have had anxiety problems too and finally went to therapy and my doctor prescribed a mild tranquilizer. I am so much better. I only need the tranquilizer now when I fly. Once you start getting out and about you can build on your successes.

  9. Ms. Pearl Says:
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    Thanks all for your encouraging words. You will be happy to know I went to another game for E. tonight and I sat by myself!!

  10. lizajane Says:
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    Good for you!

  11. homebody Says:
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    Hurray! It should get easier each time.

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